faith, Inspiration, Life

not as alone as i thought

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I have been away from the blogging game for a hot minute save for some decently received Instagram posts. So much has changed in that time period. I did learn a lot about freedom in that time, as well as a lot about the crippling trap that is seasonal depression, and also adjusting to finally have a diagnosed and medically treated anxiety disorder.

I had almost given up on God, almost gave up on ever possibly really getting back to the person who would write the blog posts already published on here. She was happy in ways she isn’t now, and unhappy in ways she was only just starting to understand the freedom of having. I have gone through a lot in terms of my emotional circumstances since late July of last year. Continue reading “not as alone as i thought”

Inspiration, Life

What Mamma Mia 2 Taught Me About Freedom

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Just last night I was on a FaceTime call with one of my girlfriends (hi Sadie!) and I was talking about how at 22, my life is nothing like I thought it would look like. The friend groups, the career choices, the dynamics in every area of my life were nothing that I had imagined. In some areas they are better than I could’ve imagined and in others I have felt as if I’ve dug a hole to deep to do nothing but choose the next logical step in the direction I’ve been in.

Continue reading “What Mamma Mia 2 Taught Me About Freedom”

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Marisa’s Book Corner: Olivia Twist by Lorie Langdon

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Welcome to the second review in Marisa’s Book Corner. I like to upload book reviews of books I’ve either been reading that I’ve bought, got from the library, or received for review. This book Olivia Twist by Lorie Langdon, is a book a received free for review. This in no way will influence my review and I make no money off this review.

I have known Lorie since 2014 and just a gush moment but she’s literally such a great human on top of being a stellar author. A little more about Lorie, she is half of the co-author team of the Doon series a four book series set in the world of the Brigadoon musical universe. The only similarities with the musical is that it’s the same world but it’s so much more! I highly encourage you all giving that series a read as well.

Lorie, according to her website, also “a few years ago, left her corporate career to satisfy the voices in her head. Now she spends her days tucked into her office, Havanese puppy by her side, working to translate her effusive imagination into the written word” ( So basically, she’s Wonder Woman, well that’s actually just her favorite superheroine.

She also has one other solo novel in addition to Olivia Twist which is Gilt Hollow! It is a young adult thriller/mystery that I have reviewed previously on my blog here it’s AWESOME.

Okay enough gushing about Lorie (like there is ever too much), now onto the review. Continue reading “Marisa’s Book Corner: Olivia Twist by Lorie Langdon”

faith, Life

My Anxiety is Not a Sin

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Shaking, hyperventalating in a deserted church breezeway into my infinity scarf, frantically texting my friend who understood exactly what it was like to be in my place.

A crippling anxiety attack in the middle of church.

I had to tuck myself away in a place where I couldn’t be found. I had no idea what the possible consequences would be if I were to be found.

Why did this start? Oh boy if I had the answer for that I’d make sure to avoid it altogether. But something that I’ve felt in the church is something I’ve had to greatly reconcile with my anxiety. If you have anxiety the Biblical way to fix it is to look less at yourself because you are just so selfish and anxiety and selfishness is a part of our sin nature and that’s what causes our anxiety. That it’s just thinking about ourselves too much.

Continue reading “My Anxiety is Not a Sin”

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So My Ministry Failed, Why That Doesn’t Mean God Failed Me

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Some of you may remember my last post (and my epic fail to try and get back on track with a blogging schedule) and it happened to mention that starting a ministry is hard. Like really freaking hard. Turns out just a smidge too hard. Okay, so that’s not really true. We launched in the fall like normal and had a good solid month and a half of bible study.

Come about mid-November it was just clear that there was a very big difference in vision among the leaders, two were leaving, and we just could no longer support a ministry. We disbanded and this resulted in a lot of emails, a lot of difficult decisions, and a few long conversations with God.

This ministry failing does not mean that God failed me. The opposite actually. The day the inciting incident for all of this occurred I felt a peace from God that should it need to disband, that was okay. It was all a part of His plan. Even now, I sometimes will feel the sting of seeing other chapters, especially ones that launched at the same time ours did being more successful and growing exponentially in ways ours never did. I have to stop myself from the rabbit hole of comparison and from feeling sad. I more than let myself be sad right after it ended. A proper mourning period of sorts. Continue reading “So My Ministry Failed, Why That Doesn’t Mean God Failed Me”

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I’m Back! Where I’ve Been and What God Has Been Teaching Me

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Hello, hello! Oh this has been a crazy crazy school year. I am now on summer break and will head into my SENIOR (that’s right SENIOR) year of college in the fall. WHERE DID COLLEGE GO? More importantly, where did this year go!? Grab some popcorn because God has been learnin’ me a thing or two even in my bloggerly absence. I’m about to share some things God has taught me since I last posted.

1. Community is one of the most crucial things in our walks as Christians.

One thing I have desired probably since middle school (so about 8 or 9 years) was someone to one-on-one disciple me. I had strongly desired someone to pour into just me. I have this terrible habit of feeling like I’ll just be too much so I clam up a lot during group discussion times. Those of you that know me personally are probably like “LOL but Marisa you talk a lot” and I do. I can answer a question no problem but when it comes to being vulnerable, I clam up. I also am incredibly long winded anyways (in case no one’s noticed thus far) so I’m always scared of taking too long to answer a question. If I had a one on one interaction I would (within reason) have time to verbally process without feeling so silly. I was waiting for this to fall into my lap for the most part. Desiring it with an ache in my heart but I had absolutely no idea how ask or if it was appropriate for me to ask or most importantly who to ask.

Continue reading “I’m Back! Where I’ve Been and What God Has Been Teaching Me”

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Why You Should Practice Contentment in Your Singleness


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The past year or so, for whatever reason, my singleness has reared its ugly head in a big flashing neon sign. I honestly don’t know why now. Maybe because in the last year I’ve had more friends get engaged or in relationships or yes even both and that has left me discouraged and thinking to God “What about me?” and the obvious answer is: It’s not God’s time for that yet. Okay yes that’s a concept I can grasp. But we aren’t meant to sit on our hands and wait for that to happen either so what do we do in the meantime? Well the answers to that question usually look like this:

“Be content in your singleness!”

“Fall in love with God first, then he’ll give you a man!”

“It’ll happen when you least expect it.” Continue reading “Why You Should Practice Contentment in Your Singleness”

faith, Life

Why I Stopped Reading “Jesus Calling”

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**Disclaimer: This post isn’t meant to incite rage or tell anyone they’re wrong, this is my experience and why I stopped reading “Jesus Calling”**

I’m not entirely sure where I first saw it. I remember clicking on it and feeling a little unsettled. This was the first devotional that I had really utilized. That I had made a part of my quiet time, that was even part of the way I started having a consistent quiet time. And now I was seeing how dangerous and problematic it was. Continue reading “Why I Stopped Reading “Jesus Calling””

Inspiration, Life

Five Fun Fall Things

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**Hi guys so school has been kicking my butt! Here’s to a new post and I promise I’ll be back on my normal posting schedule! Also I’ll be back with more faith based posts soon as well!**

As part of the life aspect on my blog I want to post some lively fun stuff that I enjoy having as part of my life.

Fall is so one of them.

We all have our comfort zone I fully believe that fall is one of them for me. I like my outfit options better the colder the weather and I feel like despite leaves dying and things hibernating, everything still comes alive to me. I feel more literary, I feel more inspired about life. I feel more me. I know that’s silly but here are five things I love doing during fall that I love! Continue reading “Five Fun Fall Things”

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Marisa’s Book Corner: Gilt Hollow by Lorie Langdon

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Marisa is posting on time? What is this? This is Marisa being incredibly excited about the release of the book she has to express all of her feelings. Welcome to Marisa’s Book Corner. It’s a good place to be.

So I have tried and failed at starting a book blog. I thought it would be fun but I was starting it for the wrong reasons and I honestly didn’t start it the way I would have originally like. I, however, really love books. Like Matilda level love of books. I always have and I always will. The idea occurred to me though, I could still do a book review once in a while because this is my blog and I do what I want.

This book was sent to me free for review, all opinions are my own. I’m literally so incredibly excited about this! What’s even better is Tuesday was release day! Happy Book Birthday Gilt Hollow!  Lorie and I have such a sweet friendship and I look up to her a lot so I’m really grateful for this opportunity. Writer friends are awesome! This post is going to be partially a review and partially my reactions with lots of amusing sidebars. Continue reading “Marisa’s Book Corner: Gilt Hollow by Lorie Langdon”